well my sweets,

its saturday... i've been workin alot... thursday night, friday night, today and tomorrow night.... i've made like ok money in the past 3 days... but whatever.

my newest obsession: la bambas (mexican food restaurant)

my newest pet peeve: hardcore feminists

classes are alright... i've got another speech coming up. i really just wanna kick my fear of public speaking- which i am getting better and better at...

still trying to sift through the craziness in my mind... gettin through it i think...

love you all.

leave it

hello my darlings, have u missed me? i'm sorry i've been so MIA- i've been working alot and catchin up with friends... you understand.

lol

Well its official - i talked to a friend of a friend who is in photography and he is going to do my pics! he has access to studios, AND mobile lighting- AND he just got a brand new digital super fancy camera I AM SO PSYCHED!!!! i cant even describe it!!!

we're gonna do the pictures the weekend of the 4th- so i have a lil time... to tan and whatnot. im so freakin excited. however i just found out that there are like 3 other girls sending pictures in- which makes me a little nervous but i've just decided to go with it, and if i dont LOVE the pictures, i'm just not going to send them in. simple, right? well it makes it easier right now anyway.

i'm so excited.

ok so my classes- i cant complain. computer science is a little rocky because the lecture is at freakin 9 a.m.  and its COMPUTER SCIENCE - NOT SO INTERESTING, so its kind of hard to stay focused.... i'm hoping as it gets more challenging it'll get better. plus im in this class with my sweetiepie girlfriend katie devine- which makes me sooo happy- and will most definately make this course more enjoyable... esp the lab portion. my speech comm class is... well its speech. had to give my first one today... kind of rambled through it... so i LOVE my food science, health and nutrition class! EVERYDAY i learn new stuff about food and nutrition and i absolutely enjoy it. its so cool bc its a big deal, u know? and i'm so curious just about like, what i need and if i have all these nutrients, how i feel and all that. good fun. my philosophy class is... well honestly its ridiculously boring- however i do enjoy the readings- and its right after my 2 hr break so that makes it really hard bc i have been tending to spend that 2 hr break sleeping... tsk tsk hehe love the couches in the library... and child psychology looks like its going to be pretty interesting... i have multiple instructors which i think will be cool because it changes it up a little....each are like the top researchers in their respective fields and give a few lectures... the different lecturing styles will take a little getting used to tho.

amber and i are still loving our apartment, for those of you who have been  - she got even MORE pink stuff for her room, including this rug that i am ridiculously jealous of - lol. we moved the bakers rack to the kitchen and i think it makes it look 100x better. however the more i think about this summer the more mixed feelings i have... oh yeah and we are thinking of sneaking two kittens...

i'm really makin an effort to expand my bubble of friends, and i'm having a lot of fun with  my coworkers- i like going out with them because you just dont see how laid back people can be til they are OUT of the work environment.

well i've got some errands to run, but know that i love you all tons even tho i'm hardly on anymore with work and friends but i promise that i'll try a hundred times harder to keep ya'll updated on my crazy life.

love you all and dont forget to feed me with the juiciness that is your lives!

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? I grew up. I started paying my own rent and bills. I balanced two jobs and school. I realized how necessary and awesome having no limitations on my relationships can be.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I think my resolution last year was that I was never doing resolutions again. haha

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope

4. Did anyone close to you die? Yep

5. What countries did you visit? The beautiful and amazing land of SINGLE- and I’ve decided to extend my stay indefinitely

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? A lot of healing

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? January 8^th for obvious and not so obvious reasons. Worst day of my life.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Surviving January 8^th, sticking to my guns in the break up

9. What was your biggest failure? Putting up with the crap for as long as I did. Running myself ragged over summer.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Physical? No. Mental/Emotional? Oh yeah, and it hurt- a lot.

11. What was the best thing you bought? Oh gosh… I dunno… maybe my digital camera?

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? I dunno what this means, really…

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Well one specific person comes to mind here, but I would just hate to slander.

14. Where did most of your money go? Into my rent and gas tank and tummy.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Coming home January 8^th from San Antonio… moving into my apartment… coming back to school… getting my job at Hooters

16. What song will always remind you of 2005? “(You will) Always be the Same” by Ryan Adams, “Starts with Goodbye” by Carrie Underwood, “Sarah Beth” by Rascal Flatts

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder: well, my heart is sadder but stronger, my mind is happier but lonlier, and my soul is all of the above

Older or wiser: well duh of course I’m older… what a silly question. And I would definitely say I’m wiser as well

Thinner or fatter: MUCH thinner

Richer or poorer: probably richer but I wasn’t paying rent at this time of year last year… so… money comes and goes quite quickly…

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? smile

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? suffer

20. How will you be spending Christmas? This year? Who knows? All signs point to ‘in Texas’ tho

21. How will you be spending New Years Eve? See above

22. Did you fall in love in 2005? I fell in love with freedom- something everyone should have, single or not.

24. What was your favorite TV program? Law and Order SVU, House M.D.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? UM YES.

26. What was the best book you read? I’m not so sure I read last year… lol

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Piano Whisperings online… lol

28. What did you want and get? I wanted a fairy tale and I got life.

29. What did you want and not get? ^^^

30. What was your favorite film(s) of this year? Chronicles of Narnia, Saw… I don’t remember any others…

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 19 and I celebrated it with my AMAZING girlfriends who surprised me with sweetness after sweetness… the most emotional part tho was the letter and charm bracelet from Diana

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Making a decision eight months earlier than I did.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Haha- as always, the handmedown chic of heidi, jenn and whoever else’s oldie’s I could get my hands on!

34. What kept you sane? who ever said I was sane?

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Oh I don’t know, I don’t really believe in idolizing celebrities- which is why I don’t know hardly any actor’s names to faces, or singers or athletes… just not my gig

36. What political issue stirred you the most? if I’d had time for politics, I wouldn’t have had the patience anyway.

37. Who did (do) you miss? From last year? Well, clare and the quality time we spent over summer, casey- the time we spent in my few trips, obviously my girls heidi and jenn who I don’t see nearly enough, my parents, my younger sibs, my older bro, my lil soldier

38. Who were the best new person/people you met? All of my amazing guy friends- nemo, white paul, asian paul, matteo, eric, jesse, there are tons

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: no matter how much making other people happy matters to you- you’ll never truly be successful unless you are happy. You cant sacrifice ANYTHING for your happiness. It should come first and foremost. And- it is ok to be selfish sometimes.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: 

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

well... i'm on a break from work.. eatin lunch.... i just tanned YUMMM - i love it!

i went to subway for lunch (SEE I AM EATING!) and now i am munchin it down while enjoying my lil break til 4:15 when i have to leave to go back to work.

well... i am getting skinnier-which i wanted- for my pictures... i've been drinking 2 slimfasts a day and eating a healthy meal or two also (depending on how long i am actually awake - lol) and my weight has really dropped~on days i know will be long, i am drinking 3 slimfast- no worries. they are REALLY healthy! and i like the taste too!... i've been running too... however the handmedown tennies that i have are KILLING my legs, so i bought insoles- if those dont help i'll have to go buy new shoes... BLAH!

however, i am having a couple weird health issues that i am trying to get under control- basically i think that i am getting slightly anemic because of the recent weight loss- so i am taking my iron supplements and i should be fine.

so thats basically the low down on the kaytage... i start school on wednesday... havent gotten any books or anything...but its cool... i'll save that for the weekend after classes start so that i dont buy anything i dont need.

well, i have finished my lunch- time to prep and then run to work! love you all!!!

OH YEAH! I ALMOST FORGOT!

so some of the cardinal players (3) came in and ate at my work! my manager took a picture and he's gonna send it into the Hooters Magazine! YAY!

*they werent any big names... i glanced through the roster- i know one was Thompson... meh, not so sure about the others tho...still it was very cool